Tuesday, April 04, 2006
Back By Popular Demand
It's been awhile since I have posted. Life has been busy, and frankly, I just wasn't in the mood to write.
Also, there would have been nights where my writing would have felt more like whining. Old friends from here may recall that I vowed to give up "Driving the BMW," or bitching, moaning, and whining, for Lent. I've managed to mostly stick to that vow, and I've discovered that it has actually made life easier in some ways. It hss also forced me to try to be more disciplined in how I communicate, so that I express myself and don't isolate - too much.
This last trip home was busy, but not overwhelmingly so like the trip before it. One of the things I had to do was have a nuclear stress test. I got those results today, and initially was quite upset by them. Then, the doctor's office called back again and the nurse and I talked at greater length, and I calmed down a lot. Bottom line is that there was a "moderately abnormal" result, but there is some chance that it might turn out not to be something serious. Apparently this result can mean that my heart just doesn't beat like everybody else's, but it is just something that has to be watched and not necessarily treated. This is the outcome that I am hoping for. It could also mean that I have other problems that do require treatment. This would not be a surprise, because I had been having more trouble being short of breath the last few months. This is something that a cardiologist will have to determine for me.
So, tomorrow I am to make an appointment with a cardiologist, and we will take things from there. I am powerless over what this doctor may or may not find. The only thing I have power over is doing whatever the next right thing might be, and hoping for a good outcome.
That being said, it is hard not to be worried.
The trip home was nice, but as usual, too short. It was good to see friends and attend meetings at Lambda. It was also nice to get out of the muggy Houston weather and back to the cooler marine air of Victoria.
Our search committee at St. Stephens also announced the name of our new rector. She is moving with her husband and children from Nashville, and from her biography, it sounds like she will be a good fit. That will mark the end of a two-year transition at our parish.
** For good medical care and to live in a city where so many healthcare options are available.
** For all the people at Lambda and St. Stephens who gave me hugs this weekend.
** For being able to be of service to a friend who was feeling a bit crazy on Friday.
** That Mankind Project Houston has scheduled a "weekend intensive" I-Group for May.
** That my friends who had a difficult weekend both in Houston and away made it through the weekend clean.
** That T. made it back to pick up a Desire Chip on Sunday. Seeing you was a reminder that it just doesn't get better out there. I am glad you are back and you are in my prayers.
** That the trip home and then back to Victoria was uneventful.
** For good spiritual advice on having my house blessed.
Also, there would have been nights where my writing would have felt more like whining. Old friends from here may recall that I vowed to give up "Driving the BMW," or bitching, moaning, and whining, for Lent. I've managed to mostly stick to that vow, and I've discovered that it has actually made life easier in some ways. It hss also forced me to try to be more disciplined in how I communicate, so that I express myself and don't isolate - too much.
This last trip home was busy, but not overwhelmingly so like the trip before it. One of the things I had to do was have a nuclear stress test. I got those results today, and initially was quite upset by them. Then, the doctor's office called back again and the nurse and I talked at greater length, and I calmed down a lot. Bottom line is that there was a "moderately abnormal" result, but there is some chance that it might turn out not to be something serious. Apparently this result can mean that my heart just doesn't beat like everybody else's, but it is just something that has to be watched and not necessarily treated. This is the outcome that I am hoping for. It could also mean that I have other problems that do require treatment. This would not be a surprise, because I had been having more trouble being short of breath the last few months. This is something that a cardiologist will have to determine for me.
So, tomorrow I am to make an appointment with a cardiologist, and we will take things from there. I am powerless over what this doctor may or may not find. The only thing I have power over is doing whatever the next right thing might be, and hoping for a good outcome.
That being said, it is hard not to be worried.
The trip home was nice, but as usual, too short. It was good to see friends and attend meetings at Lambda. It was also nice to get out of the muggy Houston weather and back to the cooler marine air of Victoria.
Our search committee at St. Stephens also announced the name of our new rector. She is moving with her husband and children from Nashville, and from her biography, it sounds like she will be a good fit. That will mark the end of a two-year transition at our parish.
** For good medical care and to live in a city where so many healthcare options are available.
** For all the people at Lambda and St. Stephens who gave me hugs this weekend.
** For being able to be of service to a friend who was feeling a bit crazy on Friday.
** That Mankind Project Houston has scheduled a "weekend intensive" I-Group for May.
** That my friends who had a difficult weekend both in Houston and away made it through the weekend clean.
** That T. made it back to pick up a Desire Chip on Sunday. Seeing you was a reminder that it just doesn't get better out there. I am glad you are back and you are in my prayers.
** That the trip home and then back to Victoria was uneventful.
** For good spiritual advice on having my house blessed.
# posted by 12StepSteve @ 11:17 PM 
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It was good to see you over the wekeend, however short that may have been.
Try not to get stressed out about your stress test. As Daavid S. says, "It's gonna be what it's gonna be."
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Try not to get stressed out about your stress test. As Daavid S. says, "It's gonna be what it's gonna be."
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